KNITTERS-DELIGHT



8:00 PM

Still Around...

This post is to let you all know that I am still here. I've been going through a real rough patch. In my life, I've always had my faith in God, family, music that speaks to me in an unexplainable way, and my pets, which have always been children to me as I do not have any 2-legged versions. I have been betrayed in life, by those that claim to love me, relationships that have failed, and numerous nights staring up at my ceiling, crying and praying for peace... Through all of these tough times, my version of children have always been there for a silent comfort.

When I first moved to California, I brought my girls - Hannah & Tupper - with me. My 2 happily spoiled cats. After only a couple months, my Tupper was bitten by a spider and suffered weeks of treatments and trips to the vet. A few days after the fourth of July, she died in my arms. The pain I felt was intense. Eventually, I picked myself up and carried on. Hannah was a comfort. Many months later I went to a new shelter and found Hannah a brother...Scofield (after Michael Scofield from the tv series Prison Break).

Almost two years later, Hannah, almost 16 years old became frail, went from 11 pound to a mere 4 1/2 pounds. I put her to sleep on Wednesday. I am trying to pick up the pieces, but am not in a state to sew, knit, or do anything else productive other than clean.

The blog has been a great support to me, so after days of silence I decided to make this post. I appreciate all of the prays and positive support from you all.

I know I will be back, as a stronger person...eventually.

Here's a picture of Hannah from a while back. She was good about keeping me company while I would knit....

33 comments:

Gail said...

Oh Susan... I'm sorry about Hannah. It's so tough to lose a pet. I lost my Sheba 10 years ago and I still think about her. She died when she was 16 years old in her sleep. We found her in the backyard curled up like she was just napping. But she didn't answer when we called.

Sinéad said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved cat. I know how hard it is to lose a pet, and to have to put one to sleep. It takes time to get over sadness like that. I'll be thinking of you.

~ Kimberlee B ~ said...

I can relate to how you are feeling. I have children but my animals are right underneath when it comes to the love I feel for them. Find peace in knowing that he is free of pain now and that she lived a long and full life with you. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Team Knit ! said...

I'm so sorry about Hannah's passing. Pets are like family, and their loss is always heartwrenching beyond belief.You gave Hannah a wonderful life, better than many poor cats have a chance to have. I can't imagine what I'll do when my babies (2 cats, too) pass on. Big hugs!

- Julie

Hilary said...

As a cat lover who is very attached to my own four-legged "child", this just breaks my heart. It sounds like Hannah had a long life, and was surely a blissful cat in your company. I am so, so sorry, and will keep you in my prayers.

eword10 said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. I've lost my two kitty companions of two decaded in the last couple of years and it is hard loss. The pain will ease, but it takes time. My thoughts are with you.

QueenSH said...

Oh sweetie I am sorry to hear this..I will keep you in my prayers.

KID, MD said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you and Hannah had many wonderful years together. I'm glad you had such a wonderful companion.

RiAnge Creations. Ltd. said...

Hi Susan,
I am sorry to hear about your loss. I think your heart will be blessed with another very soon.

Angela

Adrienne said...

I'm so sorry for your loss!! I totally understand what you are feeling. I have kids and pets and when one of the pets pass away, its hard. On the entire family. Hang in there (((HUGS)))

Sheila said...

Sorry to hear about your loss and surely understand. I have a 16 year old cat who is slowly losing her battle and just trying to keep her content as she struggles to hold on.

gwensews said...

I am truly sorry. Have faith that one day, you will heal.

Andrea said...

I am so sorry to hear about Hannah and my thoughts are with you. Remember, each day will get better and I'm sure she's there with you in spirit. I don't have children either, so my 2 dogs besides my husband are the loves of my life. My oldest is 16 1/2 and these days I've been counting each day as a blessing.

Lisa said...

I am so sorry for your loss :( Thinking about you (((HUGS)))

mle said...

Oh I'm soooo sorry! that is just heartbreaking. Why do our beloved pets have to go so soon?! {{{hugs}}}

Christie said...

Much love to you. I'm sorry sorry about your friend!

Christy Sews said...

I am so sorry to hear about Hannah. It is so hard when we have to say goodbye to our furry family members. I will keep you in my prayers.

julia said...

I'm sorry about your loss of your beloved cat. We have a cat that is 18 years old and becoming very frail looking. She's still pretty active at times, though.

Edris said...

Just wanted to send a big HUG your way. Sorry about your loss, it is hard to lose something you care about.

brandilion said...

I know that yarn. I'll miss her meowing and watching me while I eat. She sure did love chicken.

I love you.

Sarah G said...

So sorry to hear about your kitty. I also have cats, and I know how wonderful it is to have them in our lives. Best wishes to you.

Cas... said...

My condolences to you on the loss of your dear Hannah. I don't have children either but my Edgar (cat) is my son. He's always around to keep me company especially when I'm down. They know. It's hard to lose a pet and I feel your pain. Hannah I'm sure had a loving and wonderful life with you. Cherish the memories and you will make it through the rough times.

Peace be with you.

Yarn It said...

I know how it feels to loose a loved pet. I am so sorry. I hope you feel better soon and am sending hugs your way.

robin said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your babies :( My cats are both sixteen years old and I know I will be dealing with this soon too. Hugs to you!

Trudy Callan said...

You have a great blog. I'd love for you to come and visit my blog. I just made a Vintage Vogue Original 1944 Design, V2858. On the previous page you'll find a dress I made from an original 1974 pattern that I found in an antique store. I call that post The Lady in Lavender. And lots of other things in between. Hope you enjoy.

Trudy Callan said...

You have a great blog. I'd love for you to come and visit my blog. I just made a Vintage Vogue Original 1944 Design, V2858. On the previous page you'll find a dress I made from an original 1974 pattern that I found in an antique store. I call that post The Lady in Lavender. And lots of other things in between. Hope you enjoy.

woodelf said...

I got to this site via burdaenglish so I could see your creations, but I'm so sorry hear about your kitty. My cats are family to me, too. It's really hard when they go :-(

The Knitwit Hues said...

Oh, I am SO sorry. I know your pain and send you huge hugs, boxes of tissues, tons of understanding, and a cyber shoulder to cry on. You are loved.....

RobinH said...

It's so hard to let them go, even when we know they can't live as long as we do. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Cennetta said...

Sorry to hear about the loss of your precious Hannah and Tupper. I hope you find the Peace that your search for. God bless you and may He keep you during this difficult time.

amanda said...

Susan, I am so sorry about Hannah. I have 2 pets and know that they truly are your babies! I hope you get through this tough time and remember all the great memories you have of Hannah.

Two Cables and a Frapp said...

I'm really sorry to hear about Hannah. My family and I recently (last year) lost our rabbit of 11 or more years and it was really tough. Stay strong.

CanarySanctuary said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Hannah. Pets are so important to us - I'm sure she was very happy she was so loved.